Hi, i'm a 20 years boy. I'm going to be as specific as I can so here is my story (english is my second or third language). I don't expect a lot of people to read this because it will be a long story which I will write anyway at least as a journal which I heard helps as well. I'll add timestamps to help my incoherency. I recently figured out I have a depression that lasted for about 2 years (around sept 2017 – present time) and still going and it doesn't matter how much I try, I can't